So I have been getting an influx of feelings these days (preggo much?). But really, I considered myself an emotional person before I got pregnant but now I really don’t think I go a day without feeling the whole gamut of emotions that this world has to offer. Please tell me that someone can relate to me here? haha
Here’s a little back story for you:
I had a rough first and mostly second trimester. I was as sick as a dog, couldn’t keep anything down, didn’t want to see or talk to anyone because I was more exhausted then when I had mono in high school, blah blah blah. Because of that, I had a few mornings where I woke up and thought to myself, “man…Pregnancy is way harder than I feel like it should be.” At times (my poor hubs can attest to this) I was a negative Nancy about my pregnancy woes. I mean your growing a human being in your body, of course its hard. The truth is, I’m an ignorant first timer here. I don’t have any idea what I’m getting myself into.
The reason I’m telling you all of this is because I had a pretty humbling moment when I was about 16 weeks along. A very dear friend and co-worker of mine was about 18 weeks along and lost her baby. When that happened it really put things into perspective for me. It’s extremely sad that something so tragic had to happen for me get my head on straight and look at my pregnancy with a more positive attitude… but unfortunately it did. Don’t get me wrong, I have wanted to be a mom for as long as I can remember. But this experience took any negative feelings I was feeling towards the rough times of pregnancy and threw them OUT THE WINDOW. It really made me sit and think of just how blessed I am to be able to bear children regardless of how sick I feel or how hard it is. There are so many women out there who would love more than anything to be able to bear children but can’t, haven’t had the opportunity yet, or did and tragically lost their precious angel. My heart just absolutely aches for them.
Needless to say, I have been feeling an influx of gratitude these days, every time I feel my baby girl move its the very best feeling. I feel so connected to her. I never quite got what women mean when they said that they felt so close to their babies in the womb until now. I have about 11 weeks left in my pregnancy and I feel myself wishing time would slow down. I know that I will never be this close to her in my whole life and I’m already having a hard time accepting that!
With that said, here’s my second post for my baby shower inspiration outfit. I love how whimsical this outfit is! It would be perfect for an outdoor shower or one that is a little bit fancier. Annnnd….I really am just flower crown obsessed. I can never get enough of them! Especially when they are $5, like this one that I’m wearing from H&M.